It seems a little like I’m labouring a point here but, I hate Christmas. I love my family, friends and all the time and thought they put into giving presents.
However there’s too much pressure all at once.
It twists me up inside.
I fell back onto negative coping strategies to survive.
I counted calories
I isolated myself
And I bought too many pills. Not in order to overdose but as a safety net if everything got too much.
I do not, and did not want to end my life.
It’s difficult to explain.
Next year, in order to keep myself healthy and happy I am spending the day at home with my husband and our two lovely cats.
Thanks for reading and I hope you survived Christmas in the best way for you.